Back in Business (re-redux)

I posted an essay by the title "Back in Business" last Monday. I then proceeded to lose access to the account on Blogger. I haven't run into anything this stupid for a while -- I must have made a type when I entered the e-mail addressed to be tied to the account, and then I couldn't access it anymore. The Blogger automated help robot was NO HELP. So I took matters ion my own hands, and started a NEW account. Over at http://designaticipation.blogger.com there is a solitary posting, and ever more shall be so.

When I lost access, I took it as an omen, although an omen of what, I don't know. Maybe I should become a Blogger. But I have plans! I finally want to develop a single all-encompassing web presence into which I can pout all my thinking -- content, opinions, connections -- just like I wrote about 12 years ago. Building the prototype of ideas that were way ahead of their time when I first mapped them out, but which are no read. Ideas that have lain dormant for lo these many years, and which now may blossom, in some form. There are so many things to tie together -- I'm certainly juiced at the prospect. Additionally, there's the chance to add media -- podcasting or videocasting, or whatever.

For the past 10-and-a-half years I have mostly devoted my energies to getting to a job outside my home, working there, and then spending effort to get home.

I calculated recently that in that span I spent over 100 solid days commuting. I thought to myself that I wanted those days back. Maybe with interest. But how?

The remarkable fact is that Design Anticipation never died; certainly not after its apparent doom on October of '94. I kept the torch burning, somehow, lo these many years. I found myself despairing all too often that I didn't have access to making any part of the dream come true. I had to do what I had to do. Get out of debt, buy some real estate, establish a retirement account. All the things that were not happening when Design Anticipation was an active concern. And I may yet need to work to develop a constituency and an equilibrium in my life.

As I transition from an intense full-time role into a more...shall we say...contemplative period, I'm surprised and heartened at the amount of flow I'm experiencing -- at least at the moment. Life is my oyster right now. I'm really happy. There's joy in my heart. These are truly unusual assertions; it's certainly not consistent with my experience of the past few years -- in fact very little of the past 10.5 years of engagement in the full-time workforce.

I'm fortunate to be energized and hopeful, rather than disillusioned and burnt-out. I've worked hard to develop an optimistic sense -- it's certainly learned optimism, developed and encouraged by numerous influences and stimuli, not the least of which is the amazing network of loving and supportive partners I've had the good fortune to associate with over the course of my life time.

So now I set off on a new quest..to be a new Renaissance person. I think that's what Bucky Fuller, to who this blog owes its title (if somewhat obliquely) set out to teach us -- how to be interested in all the vital areas that encompass "making the world work for everyone, with no one left out." The degree of engagement with matters in a spherically-defined realm -- 360 by 360 in every direction -- and how to develop adequate degrees of freedom to function inside these every-widening spheres. (And now I'm feeling totally self conscious and pretentious -- renaissance person indeed!)

There is so much more to develop and so many more ideas to weave into the web of wonder. I just want to have fun. And learn something in my own way. We shall see...